Sunday, December 20, 2009

Growin up

Somehow ...

till today, i only used to think of growing my minds prowess,

today .....

i have started thinking about growing as a person.

Thanks to You !!!!!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Irrationality

The world expects us to be rational and preaches of a well thought out approach while taking decisions. But, if all the humans became completely rational then, wont the blue planet become a robotic planet.

So, how much irrationality a man should have to be a 'normal' human ?????

Friday, March 6, 2009

Babel and Gandhi

The man craves for everything..

and he rationalises his mind to think that everything he wants belongs to him...
he has various names for it .. and we can see this desire in the various articles that light up our press prints .. racism, sexism, regionalism, nationalism, caste system, religion, language discrimination and even patriotism..

And even our leaders or who people say are considered our leaders.. the founders of this nation (nationalism ??) .. were affected from this great bias ..

One prime example of Gandhi... remember the swadesi movement.. in which he urged the public to burn all the foreign elements or articles they had .. ( Guru Tagore did not participate in this movement)

They all forget that before the right of nation or any other society on those articles .. they all belonged to mankind .. a mankind that is not under the shadow of the tower of babel..

By fighting over petty things like Gandhi's possessions.. and haggling over this .. we just show that how deeply we suffer from this disease .. the one they have named as patriotism or natinalism ...

I have still not understood .. how is this nationalism different from caste, religion or racial discrimination ... in essence it is just the same.. just one more storey of tower of babel in our minds

But it Rained


The vagaries of a crazy an idle mind ….
Well of late that is how may mind has been .. nothing to do, lots on the mind, nothingness and a deep vaaast shooonya..
Have you ever contemplated about the little boy in ‘but it rained’

Well, I hope you dont have to....

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Sound of a Feeling - by Mommeeeeee

The five senses of the human body enable it to recognize its surroundings. It develops a familiarization using them. It could be a sound, a scene, and so on. This capacity of sensing is something that we have right from birth. Over the period of the entire life time, we develop reactions to what we sense. These reactions may or may not change. And these reactions could be in the form of an external physical action or else, and internal thought, or in other cases a feeling.

It is over a period of time that a little child learns sounds. There’s a particular understanding of each word or audio that s/he hears. S/He learns words and meanings, and expression comes of them.

It is perhaps simple, at least, to a fairly good extent, to develop the understanding of words, sounds, visuals etc. In fact the sense organs often are reflexive. But there’s a different realization or sensing ability that can’t be defined in similar way.

I see, I hear, I smell, I taste and I touch. But what about what I Feel? Feelings are what give us another kind of sensitivity, or sensing capability. But this is very special. Its evolution and response, both, are complex. And, is also subjective to an individual.

Even so, our description of sensing abilities is generally confined to hearing or seeing or touching etc. So how would we be capable of sensing a feeling? Can we see it? Touch it? Or may be hear it? Or do we just feel a feeling?

We can certainly feel a feeling, but besides this, intuitively, I think, we can hear it too. If that be so, what would it sound like? What is the sound of a feeling? Something intrigued me about this feeling of sound, I mean the feeling of feeling the sound of a feeling.

I see a conglomerate of colours on a canvas, and I realize it is a painting, and I know it is music; I taste sugar and I know it is sweet. But how do I hear a feeling? What is my association with it that helps me hear it? When there is rain falling over trees, and wind moving the leaves; water drops fall from the tip of one leaf to another, and the fragile branches swirl in the wind; how do I take it? Is it just a sound? Perhaps not just that; it in fact defines a picture, a sound, and some association with someone or some instance, i.e. a memory. And there originates a feeling.

You hear a feeling, in your mind. But for hearing a feeling your mind should be capable of recognizing it. The difference between feeling a feeling and hearing a feeling is the ability of associating one’s past experience with the feeling. I know how it feels to miss home when I haven’t been there for a long time. But is would be an extreme example, because this could happen often. The mind may recognize the sounds of feelings that my not be felt as frequently, they would be like experiencing a déjà vu. Like looking at someone you have probably seen before, and you see again, it an almost similar situation, and immediately there comes a faint picture of such an experience you had earlier.

The difference between the sound of a feeling and any other sense is very distinct. First, you have the advantage of hearing the sound of the feeling privately. No one else can sense it the way you do. Second, you can’t use your ears for the sound of a feeling, the mind or the heart hears it. And third, it is easier to recognize a sound that you could hear from ears, but the sound of a feeling requires your memory, mind and heart. It is more complex. You re-live the situation in the memory everytime that you hear that feeling.

The feeling of being hugged by loved ones, the feeling of meeting an old friend, the feeling of helping a needy, the feeling of being betrayed by someone, the feeling of missing someone desperately; you feel more intensely when you hear them. The sound of these feelings hence, is, the syllable created by memory, recognized by the heart and internalized by the mind.

So can a feeling ever cause a sound? The answer to this, probably, is yes. The first time ever that you feel a feeling and then, if ever, you feel it again, there gets registered a syllable of that feeling in your brain. Over a period of time if that feeling is triggered over and over again, the memory can distinctly create the appropriate syllable as the mind understands it, and hence there would be a sound created of that feeling. The cause of the sound is the feeling, because the it was internalized after one experiences the feeling.

Could the experience or sense of a feeling be a sound? Absolutely, (provided you are not new to that feeling), the memory would instantly create the sound, and you would hear it!

Monday, December 22, 2008

Reliance !!


No.. I m not going to talk about the big conglomerate; nor I m going to say anythin about the greatness of the family. Or anything of tht sort.

I will jus saying a few words about “Reliance” on each other.

Can we live without relying on each other … a good idea in a devils mind.. but not in practice. Let’s go deeper.

Can we live without relying on each other.. not for materialistic things or chores .. or work ..but for support?

Don’t know about you guys. But I can not. I will not go into why? Probably.. no. not probably.
Definitely, your mind can find out better reasons then mind. I also won’t go into the benefits and the need of it. But, I have doubts. So, here goes..

Who all should you rely upon?
When this reliance does become over reliance?
Is this reliance parasitic in nature?
Why do we make rosy pictures of people we interact with (generally) and are nonchalant about others?
Is over reliance on some one harmful?
How do you rely on people who you know will not be there, down the line?

And finally .. why is everything so tough .. so subjective …why isn’t this world simpler? It always seems a comedy of errors to me and I m the biggest comedian.